analysis of the cycle (help what's happening to me! hehe)

Haha i got it all wrong!

The reason why I am so hung up and hopelessly addicted to you is because - i don't know you.. i'm stuck with this illusion of your perfection!

Okay a step by step analysis:

I don't really know you
All I have are stories from friends. All I have really are moments.

Because of this, I've created illusions.
All I have now are illusions:
1) an illusion that you are perfect.
2) an illusion that you are the only one that will make me happy.
3) an illusion that I am in love with you.

These illusions have characteristics or properties:
1) These illusions cloud my judgement, influences my feelings and actions. In this case, the illusion of loving you leads me to feel that I am indeed in love with you.
2) The illusions are connected to or lead to other illusions.
All the 3 illusions mentioned lead me to believe that you are unattainable, unreachable. The illusion of your unattainability influences my feelings. I get caught up/enthralled/blinded by the romantic/sadistic thought of unrequited love. And this causes me to be act a certain way - to be shy around you, to feel unworthy of you, to not try to know you.. In result, I won't ever know you at all.

As one can see, I am led back to the first premise. The characteristics of the illusions lead me back to the first step.

Such goes this cycle of illusions. There is no escape for me as of now.